Welcome to my website. I'll warn you in advance, you'll need a strong stomach to read what I write here. Maybe I shouldn't tell everything with all the bloody details, but I think, writing it down may give me some peace with what happens. And destroys my life.

The things that happen to me are rather special. It all started fairly simple...

Look, when I grew up I was a normal girl. Not tall, not small, maybe even boring. I loved to read books, I liked to play with my dog, nothing special about me. I had long blond hair, usually in two braids, and my mom and dad were always proud of me when I did well in school. Yes, nothing out of the ordinary.

I studied the law, ironically. I wanted to become a judge, see to it that people would behave and be good. When I walked around campus one day I met Frank. My beloved Frank. He was attractive: a broad man, dark brown beard, shiny eyes. He looked honoust and strong, a great man to be with, and way out of my league. But he noticed me and we talked about teachers, students and drinks. So we went to a bar and tasted all the liquor that was there.

We had so much fun, so we never parted anymore. For years it went well. We fell in love, I moved in with him in his brand new appartment and we enjoyed eachothers company. He is a great guy, with sharp humor, a keen eye for another persons needs and a warm character. I couldn't have been luckier. So why did I ruin it?

So it started simple, that's what I said. But how simple is it to take another persons life? Not at first it wasn't. Hell no, it was horrible. Let me tell you, I have quite a bad temper. There's no harm in that. But I go a few steps further. I discoverd that I've got a rage inside me that can't be controlled. One day I crossed the line, and killed my husband. You can read about that in The One where he Forgot to Tape Star Trek. I hated myself when it happened. But for some freaky reason, Frank didn't die. And I killed him again, and many times more. I started to enjoy it, the violence, the blood, death. I'll tell you right here how this changed my life. Check out the story that starts next!